Today I miss HIM badly...~~~
Saturday, April 17, 2010
I Still Miss HIM...~~~
I don't know why this few weeks I'm having so weird kind of feeling...so weird and odd...Perhaps a lot of things came by for a visit...I wish everything will be alright...but end up nothing different...I know I'm capable of control my feeling's already...but still and will have feeling's right...??? When this happens what did I do...??? I've done something that i really hate myself few days ago...I LIE...haix...Hope I LIE for a good reason but after a deep thought...I FELT is my FAULT to do tat...extremely wrong...sorry...~~~ Hmmm...I don't know but still I believe for everything happened will be a reason...
Friday, April 9, 2010
Sweet Dream Or Beautiful Nightmare...~~~???
May my life like toilet paper...long and useful...~~~
Well...a lot of things happen right after my GREAT accident...I really mean it...It’s damn a lot man...~~~!!!
Hmmm...well I’m hoping to recover as soon as possible but you know things just won’t happen the way u wanted it to be...But it’s ok cause I’ve accepted what happened to me actually but just that a bit disappointed la....~~~ Emmm...let’s see...CT scan shows cracks when I thought it was only 1...LEFT TEMPORAL EXTRADURAL HAEMORRHAGE...PNEUMOCRANIUM...COUNTRE COUP RIGHT FRONTOBASAL CONTUSIONS ( MILD )... I’ve checked on the internet...kinda normal case whereby lost of hearing is normal...well it’s not normal for me for sure...haix... What to do...things happen d...~~~
For now...still having dizziness...headache getting worst...everytime it gets in I would just lye down and dream lolx...~~~ Still remember Sunday when I had that dizzy when I was driving back home from QB...my god...I was so scared...Like floating on my seat...Just thought of LORD that time then everything goes smooth...~~~
ENT ( EAR NOSE THROAT ) department is where I have been referred to...GREAT machinery tats all I can say...Get me checked up with 6 different machines...Results shows that there is no defect’s to my Cochlea or something like that or to be more simple my ear organ’s...but my cavity had been pressed by the cracks...to be honest I think it’s going to be permanent...nothing I can do about it...~~~
Well EAR had finished checking...it’s my head’s turn...Wednesday gone for another scan...shows mild haemorrhage ( INTERNAL BLEEDING )...should be ok as it doesn’t affect any part of my brain lolx...but still cause some effect’s like dizziness and etc and still need to take some medicine la...Lost 5KG all because of the medicine...haix getting thinner and thinner nia...but I still wan football and badminton in my life...~~~!!!
Saw my motor the day before...well it creeps me out...looks like I’m pretty lucky I guess...I love my motor so much helps me a lot for such a long time...but everything end’s like that...hope my dad can repair it soon cause I wanted to see it alive again...T.T...~~~
Sweet Dream or Beautiful Nightmare...~~~
For few days I was so damn EMO leh...dunno why oso...Go everywhere also alone...But actually it teaches me a lot of things leh...I found out a lot of things and theory...1 biggest and most important theory which I figure out was when u put someone 1st...you end up last...sometime very pity to my friends also leh...why so down cause of some stupid ppl leh...~~~ Why I did I say that...dun ask me leh ask them la cos I dunno how to say also...Just think it deeply la...got truth eh...~~~ Paradise beach was the best spot to be EMO lolx...lying down and watch out stars and see old messages wao...so romantic and relaxing...was nice but still HURT la lolx...and sorry I din reply summone msg that day really sorry ya...make you worry nia...sorry sorry...anyway LOVE is not everything yet la...cause I feel nothing is everything...Everything is you yourself ba mostly...”I’m overboard and I need your love and FOOL me up”...love this sentence sooooo much...cause it’s sooooooo true...~~~ “I’m drowning I can’t swim on my own and I need your love”...this sentence leh...??? I dunno how to say oso haix...cause I don’t want to be the one to say it out...walao leh...why I say this in my blog like talking to me myself aneh pulak ...~~~ Love you PARADISE ^.^ I can take care my own feeling’s now sooooooo happy no need to tell anyone yipeeeeee...~~~!!!
That’s Entertainment...~~~
Well Monday won an iPod casing...lolx so funny nia...Simply go participate a contest in Facebook and won it wo...me aneh gao meh lolx...claimed it at QB...~~~ Well I really like that casing...it fits well to my new iPod...huh my new iPod..??? Yaya...My iPod have a new look babe...And I love it...!!! Why did I change it...??? Cause I want to change too...I mean totally change leh...haix...dunno why that morning I think of that
suddenly...well for now only me and my iPod is my best life partner...I love MY iPod and my iPod love me lolx...~~~ ( SHINING IPOD and SHINING ME )
Wao...get tiok my Jersey liao...I choose 20 wo...ok bo...??? I want choose 11 eh...but end up don’t want...cause I don’t like kua...maybe...~~~ Complicated nia my feeling this week but I like it...cause I’m fucking relax man...really...~~~ Emmm...nice material oso leh the jersey still satisfied la...~~~ But I still wanted number 11 haix...~~~
Saman ah saman...sienx nia you ah...why u came up when I wan use my money apalah you...I want eat holiao go holiao eh place eh si you pulak come find me...haix...My RM370 fly d lo...but nvm la...is my wrong ma so bo huat... Nvm la...memory ma ho...keep it save la lolx...dunno what I’m saying oso...~~~
After all bad luck I had this week...but I’m still happy leh...Cause I really din share my happiness with anyone also...I feel happy cause I have time to focus on my happiness...Wao...I really like it...really do...~~~
Well...nice week with many lessons...I deserve it kua...The most important lesson I know can d...cos I still believe it is the best lesson I had since long long time till now...~~~ Enjoy My Own Life And Cherish My Own Family And Matter’s...Selfish coming back...??? I don’t know...Problem’s made that...Not my fault...!!! ( LOVE MYSELF NOWADAYS CAUSE I NEVER REGRET WITH WHAT I HAD DONE )
Well...a lot of things happen right after my GREAT accident...I really mean it...It’s damn a lot man...~~~!!!
Hmmm...well I’m hoping to recover as soon as possible but you know things just won’t happen the way u wanted it to be...But it’s ok cause I’ve accepted what happened to me actually but just that a bit disappointed la....~~~ Emmm...let’s see...CT scan shows cracks when I thought it was only 1...LEFT TEMPORAL EXTRADURAL HAEMORRHAGE...PNEUMOCRANIUM...COUNTRE COUP RIGHT FRONTOBASAL CONTUSIONS ( MILD )... I’ve checked on the internet...kinda normal case whereby lost of hearing is normal...well it’s not normal for me for sure...haix... What to do...things happen d...~~~
For now...still having dizziness...headache getting worst...everytime it gets in I would just lye down and dream lolx...~~~ Still remember Sunday when I had that dizzy when I was driving back home from QB...my god...I was so scared...Like floating on my seat...Just thought of LORD that time then everything goes smooth...~~~
ENT ( EAR NOSE THROAT ) department is where I have been referred to...GREAT machinery tats all I can say...Get me checked up with 6 different machines...Results shows that there is no defect’s to my Cochlea or something like that or to be more simple my ear organ’s...but my cavity had been pressed by the cracks...to be honest I think it’s going to be permanent...nothing I can do about it...~~~
Well EAR had finished checking...it’s my head’s turn...Wednesday gone for another scan...shows mild haemorrhage ( INTERNAL BLEEDING )...should be ok as it doesn’t affect any part of my brain lolx...but still cause some effect’s like dizziness and etc and still need to take some medicine la...Lost 5KG all because of the medicine...haix getting thinner and thinner nia...but I still wan football and badminton in my life...~~~!!!
Saw my motor the day before...well it creeps me out...looks like I’m pretty lucky I guess...I love my motor so much helps me a lot for such a long time...but everything end’s like that...hope my dad can repair it soon cause I wanted to see it alive again...T.T...~~~
Sweet Dream or Beautiful Nightmare...~~~
For few days I was so damn EMO leh...dunno why oso...Go everywhere also alone...But actually it teaches me a lot of things leh...I found out a lot of things and theory...1 biggest and most important theory which I figure out was when u put someone 1st...you end up last...sometime very pity to my friends also leh...why so down cause of some stupid ppl leh...~~~ Why I did I say that...dun ask me leh ask them la cos I dunno how to say also...Just think it deeply la...got truth eh...~~~ Paradise beach was the best spot to be EMO lolx...lying down and watch out stars and see old messages wao...so romantic and relaxing...was nice but still HURT la lolx...and sorry I din reply summone msg that day really sorry ya...make you worry nia...sorry sorry...anyway LOVE is not everything yet la...cause I feel nothing is everything...Everything is you yourself ba mostly...”I’m overboard and I need your love and FOOL me up”...love this sentence sooooo much...cause it’s sooooooo true...~~~ “I’m drowning I can’t swim on my own and I need your love”...this sentence leh...??? I dunno how to say oso haix...cause I don’t want to be the one to say it out...walao leh...why I say this in my blog like talking to me myself aneh pulak ...~~~ Love you PARADISE ^.^ I can take care my own feeling’s now sooooooo happy no need to tell anyone yipeeeeee...~~~!!!
That’s Entertainment...~~~
Well Monday won an iPod casing...lolx so funny nia...Simply go participate a contest in Facebook and won it wo...me aneh gao meh lolx...claimed it at QB...~~~ Well I really like that casing...it fits well to my new iPod...huh my new iPod..??? Yaya...My iPod have a new look babe...And I love it...!!! Why did I change it...??? Cause I want to change too...I mean totally change leh...haix...dunno why that morning I think of that
suddenly...well for now only me and my iPod is my best life partner...I love MY iPod and my iPod love me lolx...~~~ ( SHINING IPOD and SHINING ME )
Wao...get tiok my Jersey liao...I choose 20 wo...ok bo...??? I want choose 11 eh...but end up don’t want...cause I don’t like kua...maybe...~~~ Complicated nia my feeling this week but I like it...cause I’m fucking relax man...really...~~~ Emmm...nice material oso leh the jersey still satisfied la...~~~ But I still wanted number 11 haix...~~~
Saman ah saman...sienx nia you ah...why u came up when I wan use my money apalah you...I want eat holiao go holiao eh place eh si you pulak come find me...haix...My RM370 fly d lo...but nvm la...is my wrong ma so bo huat... Nvm la...memory ma ho...keep it save la lolx...dunno what I’m saying oso...~~~
After all bad luck I had this week...but I’m still happy leh...Cause I really din share my happiness with anyone also...I feel happy cause I have time to focus on my happiness...Wao...I really like it...really do...~~~
Well...nice week with many lessons...I deserve it kua...The most important lesson I know can d...cos I still believe it is the best lesson I had since long long time till now...~~~ Enjoy My Own Life And Cherish My Own Family And Matter’s...Selfish coming back...??? I don’t know...Problem’s made that...Not my fault...!!! ( LOVE MYSELF NOWADAYS CAUSE I NEVER REGRET WITH WHAT I HAD DONE )
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