Life's a BITCH !!

                                    

Alright, I can't sleep right now. Why ? Lots of thing bothering my mind. It's one of the night where my brain just boosted from hibernating into full capacity. So I decided to write it down as I always do. 

Why do I need to face so much crisis ? Alright, I'm not blaming my fate or my surroundings for this, I'm fully aware that I solely responsible for everything. Still, there is one small dot of ink on a blank piece of paper, a dot that makes the perfect imperfections in my ideal blissful life. Till now jealousy fills up my mind, so much jealousy, until I can't even breath sometime. Literally mind breathing I mean HAHAHAHA !

Why just they can enjoy their life, without even one single responsibility beared in their mind nor hand ? Responsibility to study hard or even just shut up and come to class or whatever they suppose to do ? Weird right ? With so much good things, plannings and life ahead planned by someone else perfectly laid down infront that just requires them to walk thru, I just can't stand silently watching them ruin their perfectly good life ! It's true life isn't fair anyway, but this is just way too not right. I'm not anyone to say what's right nor what's wrong, but I guess I did my part right, right ? 

One dot cleared, the ripple of the ink is still be seen. Jealousy again. Jealous of something I guess I should jealous of. There is this guy, who never even appreciate what he have. Again I have no rights to say anything since I do not really know him very well. But come on, you let her hand go just because you scared of someone ? Someone that you not even related with !! Do you really want her, or you just wanna have her for the sake of owning her ? Yeah it's complicated, you can still explain and explain and whatever, but this is just too much.. You expecting so much from her yet you can't even give a simple happiness. Sense of belonging. 

Now there's the uncertainty. Uncertainty of my pityful life ! No matter how much hardwork I put in, there's always this uncertainty. Here comes the catch, these people have confirmation when I don't even have the outline !! Life's a BITCH !! Good night :)

Sometime it just happens...

                                    

People say, libra is the most lovable sign ever. And people too says Gemini might be a bit playful and wild in character. Let's do some chemistry experiment here can we ? Let's just mix this two totally opposite sign in-term of character wise and let's see what happen...

Let me tell you a story, but before starting off with this story, I would like thanks my family, friends and ofcourse all the instructors back in my flying school for giving me such a good experience in life so far. I've clocked 80 hours so far and obtained my first ever license that so called 'wings' of my own, private pilot license. I'm grateful that I'm still in one piece and still on the process of pursuing my life long dream of mine. Let's hope for the best okay ? :)

Okay the story begins like this, there is one guy which is one close friend of mine recently got transferred to another state to pursue his further studies. Well, without thinking much, he accepted the offer and begin his new journey in a state unknown to him. Well, it was hard at first, especially when you do not know anything about the place. Everything going well in his studies till one day, one special day 15 March 2014. It's Friday night and it's time to release some steam ofcourse and he went to one bar and I do not know what strucked him but it was her, the girl in white. The girl with a naive face yet mysterious in character. A girl who gives a conversation yet silently inside hiding from the crowd. A girl he wanted to know more about yet he is afraid to..

Never know things will get this serious but he actually felt love at the first sight. Trying to contain that feelings of his underneath the biggest ego just doesn't work. Knowing she is a Gemini, he dare not to gamble his feelings when he knows that this is just a plain war.. War that he will fall. The Gemini confessed of her complicated mix of feelings, lust and love, while he still hoping to find someone inside her that he might just fall for. And without he realizing it, he just got into the most wonderful walk of love he ever gone thru. 

Care, love, thoughts and jealousy keep building up in him as days of him at that particular situation is counting down. Although he knew, what he was doing is absolutely wrong as the Gemini have nothing to promise him at first, he kept it going in the hope that everything might just change. Things happens, bad things happens, but they gone thru each of it with the hope they share. Memories, memories that will never fade for the last moments, memories that they hope to built in the next future is what they wanted for. No doubt, they fall in love in each other so deeply that heaven might just bless them...

She might not be the prettiest of all, but she is the one with gratitude. She might not be the ideal one, but she might just love you the most. She might not be yours now, but she might be yours forever...